{"id":589,"date":"2025-07-14T12:29:00","date_gmt":"2025-07-14T12:29:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lawrencenault.me\/journal\/2025\/07\/14\/stone-and-signal-episode-3-the-fire-and-the-frost\/"},"modified":"2026-07-12T20:00:50","modified_gmt":"2026-07-12T20:00:50","slug":"stone-and-signal-episode-3-the-fire-and-the-frost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lawrencenault.me\/journal\/2025\/07\/14\/stone-and-signal-episode-3-the-fire-and-the-frost\/","title":{"rendered":"Stone and Signal &#8211; Episode 3: The Fire and the Frost"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center\"><span style=\"font-size: medium;font-weight: 400;text-align: left\">Welcome back to Stone and Signal.&nbsp; If you haven&#8217;t heard the first episode yet you can find information on Episdoe 1&nbsp;<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/mountainthermit.blogspot.com\/2025\/04\/stone-and-signal-episode-1-listening-to.html\" style=\"font-size: medium;font-weight: 400;text-align: left\">here<\/a>&nbsp;and Episode 2 <a href=\"https:\/\/mountainthermit.blogspot.com\/2025\/05\/stone-and-signal-episode-2-tales-that.html\">here<\/a>.<\/p>\n<h2 style=\"text-align: center\">The Podcast Links<\/h2>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><a href=\"https:\/\/youtu.be\/B_pF-Hxuj2E\">Edpisode 3 on YouTube<\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><a href=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/episode\/53qHVqPAshqhYJo3Qp2QNN\">Episode 3 on Spotify<\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><a href=\"#the-essay\">The Essay<\/a><\/p>\n<div style=\"text-align: center\"><a href=\"#the-transcript\">The Transcript<\/a><\/div>\n<p><a id=\"the-essay\"><\/a><\/p>\n<h1 style=\"text-align: center\">&nbsp;What Doesn\u2019t Scale<\/h1>\n<table align=\"center\" cellpadding=\"0\" cellspacing=\"0\" class=\"tr-caption-container\" style=\"margin-left: auto;margin-right: auto\">\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td style=\"text-align: center\"><a href=\"https:\/\/lawrencenault.me\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/pexels-pixabay-33582-scaled.jpg\" style=\"margin-left: auto;margin-right: auto\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" border=\"0\" data-original-height=\"2286\" data-original-width=\"4096\" height=\"179\" src=\"https:\/\/lawrencenault.me\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/pexels-pixabay-33582-scaled.jpg\" width=\"320\" \/><\/a><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td class=\"tr-caption\" style=\"text-align: center\"><span style=\"font-family: &quot;Canva Sans&quot;, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, Roboto, -apple-system, blinkmacsystemfont, sans-serif;text-align: start;white-space: pre\"><span style=\"font-size: xx-small\">Photo by Pixabay: https:\/\/www.pexels.com\/photo\/green-boat-with-oars-on-both-side-during-golden-hour-panoramic-photography-33582\/<\/span><\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>We\u2019ve built a culture obsessed with scale.<\/div>\n<p data-end=\"953\" data-start=\"575\">\nIf something can\u2019t be made faster, bigger, more efficient, it\u2019s dismissed as quaint\u2014or worse, irrelevant. We praise the viral, the exponential, the optimized. We\u2019re told to build audiences, to batch content, to repurpose our thoughts into ever more digestible forms. Nothing is allowed to stay small. Nothing is allowed to simply be.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1006\" data-start=\"955\">But there\u2019s a quiet power in what refuses to scale.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1168\" data-start=\"1008\">A handwritten letter.<br data-end=\"1032\" data-start=\"1029\" \/><br \/>\nA meal cooked slowly for one person.<br data-end=\"1071\" data-start=\"1068\" \/><br \/>\nA moment of real attention, offered without a motive.<br data-end=\"1127\" data-start=\"1124\" \/><br \/>\nA poem read aloud to no one but yourself.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1234\" data-start=\"1170\">These are not acts of productivity.<br data-end=\"1208\" data-start=\"1205\" \/><br \/>\nThey are acts of presence.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1264\" data-start=\"1236\">And presence does not scale.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1581\" data-start=\"1266\">That\u2019s uncomfortable to say, especially in a time when so much of our worth is measured in metrics. Even art has been pulled into the gravitational field of content. The expectation is not just to create, but to convert: followers to buyers, impressions to engagement, every quiet thing into something quantifiable.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1648\" data-start=\"1583\">But not everything we make is meant to move at the speed of data.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"1954\" data-start=\"1650\">There are forms of expression that resist conversion. That can\u2019t be packaged, scheduled, or split into ten social media posts. These are often the truest things we have to offer. And they ask something we\u2019re not often asked to give: our time. Our attention. Our willingness to linger in the unmarketable.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2024\" data-start=\"1956\">The best art doesn\u2019t want to convince you.<br data-end=\"2001\" data-start=\"1998\" \/><br \/>\nIt wants to change you.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2053\" data-start=\"2026\">And real change takes time.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2355\" data-start=\"2055\">That\u2019s what I\u2019ve been thinking about lately\u2014not just as a writer, but as a human being living in a world that increasingly feels allergic to stillness. I don\u2019t have a strategy to offer. This isn\u2019t a think piece with a tidy solution. It\u2019s a note from the margins, written in defense of the unscalable.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2535\" data-start=\"2357\">I want to keep making things that don\u2019t fit into a funnel. That won\u2019t go viral. That refuse to compete with the noise. Not because they\u2019re better\u2014but because they\u2019re <em data-end=\"2535\" data-start=\"2523\">necessary.<\/em><\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2562\" data-start=\"2537\">We need art that lingers.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2607\" data-start=\"2564\">We need language that asks us to slow down.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2652\" data-start=\"2609\">We need practices that make us human again.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2724\" data-start=\"2654\">Not everything should scale.<br data-end=\"2685\" data-start=\"2682\" \/><br \/>\nAnd that\u2019s not a flaw.<br data-end=\"2710\" data-start=\"2707\" \/><br \/>\nIt\u2019s a choice.<\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2724\" data-start=\"2654\"><\/p>\n<p data-end=\"2724\" data-start=\"2654\">\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal\">\n<h1 style=\"text-align: center\"><b><span style=\"font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;,serif\"><span>&nbsp;<a id=\"the-transcript\"><\/a><\/span>Stone<br \/>\nand Signal \u2013 Episode 3: The Fire and the Frost<\/span><\/b><\/h1>\n<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Welcome back to <em><span>Stone and Signal<\/span><\/em>.<br \/>\nI\u2019m Lawrence Nault.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">This<br \/>\nepisode is different.<br \/>\nIt\u2019s slower. Softer.<br \/>\nA breath drawn in\u2014and held.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">We\u2019ve<br \/>\nwandered, you and I, through stories of collapse and resilience&#8230;<br \/>\nThrough old myths, forgotten futures, and the strange shapes of survival.<br \/>\nBut today, I want to set those stories down for a while.<br \/>\nTo step aside from narrative and dwell in the language beneath language.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">The<br \/>\nrhythm behind the words.<br \/>\nThe space between the phrases.<br \/>\nThe quiet pulse that remains when everything else is stripped away.<br \/>\nPoetry.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">There<br \/>\nare moments when the world begins to outpace us\u2014<br \/>\nWhen the noise, the speed, the pressure of it all makes it hard to think, let<br \/>\nalone speak.<br \/>\nLately, those moments seem to come more often.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Boosted<br \/>\nby machines that accelerate our exhaustion.<br \/>\nBy timelines that never sleep.<br \/>\nBy algorithms that shout louder with each scroll, until silence itself feels<br \/>\nlike an act of rebellion.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">It\u2019s<br \/>\nlike being caught in a breath\u2014trapped in that moment before exhale\u2014<br \/>\nthe air gone thin, the noise thick around you.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">But<br \/>\npoetry doesn\u2019t ask for volume.<br \/>\nIt asks for stillness.<br \/>\nIt doesn\u2019t demand your attention\u2014it <em><span>invites<\/span><\/em> it.<br \/>\nAnd in that invitation, there\u2019s a kind of sanctuary.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Today,<br \/>\nI\u2019ll share a handful of my poems.<br \/>\nSome come from my collection <em><span>Fragments of Frost and Fire<\/span><\/em>.<br \/>\nOthers are new\u2014written in the small hours,<br \/>\nin frost-hung silence, or beside the slow ember-glow of grief.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">They\u2019re<br \/>\nfragments, really\u2014of memory, of wonder, of resistance.<br \/>\nA handful of signals I\u2019ve sent out over the years,<br \/>\nhoping they might land in someone else\u2019s quiet.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">And<br \/>\ntogether, I hope they form a kind of weather.<br \/>\nA climate of attention.<br \/>\nA brief clearing in the noise.<br \/>\nA signal, cast quietly into the world\u2014<br \/>\nmeant not to be decoded, but simply received.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Poetry<br \/>\nhas always felt elemental to me.<br \/>\nNot just in theme, but in nature.<br \/>\nIt doesn\u2019t announce itself with answers.<br \/>\nIt doesn\u2019t try to win an argument.<br \/>\nIt just\u2026 is.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">A<br \/>\nflicker.<br \/>\nA breath.<br \/>\nA signal from something older than language.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">It\u2019s<br \/>\nnot a performance.<br \/>\nIt\u2019s not meant to convince.<br \/>\nIt\u2019s meant to resonate.<br \/>\nTo strike a chord inside you that you didn\u2019t know was waiting to be struck.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Sometimes<br \/>\nit comes like smoke\u2014<br \/>\nrising from something smoldering far beneath the surface.<br \/>\nA memory.<br \/>\nA question.<br \/>\nA grief not yet named.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Other<br \/>\ntimes, it comes like cold\u2014<br \/>\nsharp, bracing,<br \/>\na sudden clarity that startles you awake and shows you the frost etching your<br \/>\nwindow was trying to speak all along.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">There<br \/>\nare poems I wrote years ago that still feel like strangers.<br \/>\nThey show up in old notebooks or tucked into margins\u2014<br \/>\nand I don\u2019t recognize the voice, but something in the shape of them still rings<br \/>\ntrue.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">And<br \/>\nthen there are those I barely remember writing\u2014<br \/>\nscribbled in the margins of exhaustion or awe\u2014<br \/>\nbut they carry truths I didn\u2019t know I needed until I heard them read aloud,<br \/>\nyears later.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Poetry<br \/>\nhas music to it,<br \/>\nbut it\u2019s not always a melody you can hum.<br \/>\nIt\u2019s a kind of private soundtrack\u2014<br \/>\nand you, the listener,<br \/>\nare the only one who can hear it clearly.<br \/>\nThe rhythm will be different for each of us.<br \/>\nThe silence will land in different places.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Because<br \/>\npoetry, to be understood,<br \/>\nmust be experienced.<br \/>\nNot just heard.<br \/>\nAnd certainly not explained.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Your<br \/>\nmind has to wander through it\u2014<br \/>\nto climb the hills,<br \/>\nto sit still in the fog,<br \/>\nto follow the curve of its strange shoreline.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Sometimes<br \/>\na single line will open something inside you\u2014<br \/>\na door, a memory, a scar.<br \/>\nAnd sometimes, nothing will happen.<br \/>\nNot right away.<br \/>\nBut the words will stay with you.<br \/>\nWaiting.<br \/>\nSifting through the dust for a place to root.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">So<br \/>\nI invite you to listen.<br \/>\nNot just to the words,<br \/>\nbut to the spaces between them.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Let<br \/>\nthem breathe.<br \/>\nLet them echo.<br \/>\nLet them be what they are.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">A<br \/>\nsignal.<br \/>\nA fire.<br \/>\nA frost.<br \/>\nAnd something that endures in the quiet.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">The<br \/>\ndeeper I sink into the life of a hermit, a recluse, a writer\u2014the more I find<br \/>\nmyself engaging with the world through ideas, not through presence. These ideas<br \/>\ndon\u2019t always arrive fully formed\u2014they come in fragments, in twilight hours, in<br \/>\ndreams I half-remember. These fragments arrive when the world goes quiet.<br \/>\nSometimes they become stories. Sometimes they become poems.<\/p>\n<h2 style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm;text-align: left\">Worlds Between<br \/>\nWorlds<\/h2>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">I\u2019ve lived my<br \/>\nlife,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Many lives,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In the<br \/>\ntwilight.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Not that space<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Between day and<br \/>\nnight,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">When the sun<br \/>\nescapes<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Over the<br \/>\nhorizon,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And the moon<br \/>\nshuffles<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">To its nightly<br \/>\nobservation post\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">But the space<br \/>\nbetween my eyelids,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Blocking out<br \/>\nthe day,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Preparing to<br \/>\ntransition me from one world to the next\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">From the world<br \/>\nof the living,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">To the world of<br \/>\nthe subconscious.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">The twilight is<br \/>\nthe world that exists<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Between those.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">It is that<br \/>\nworld<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In which I have<br \/>\nso many lives.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">A rancher, a<br \/>\nrecluse,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">A holy man, a<br \/>\nhermit,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">A lover, a<br \/>\nfighter,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">A man of power,<br \/>\na man of means,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">An immortal, a<br \/>\nlost soul.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">That world was<br \/>\nreal\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Where I lived<br \/>\nlifetimes in minutes,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And minutes in<br \/>\nhours.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">As a rancher,<br \/>\nthe foothills were my playground,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">The snow-peaked<br \/>\nmountains my backdrop,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">To the mighty<br \/>\nhorses\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">The shires that<br \/>\nroamed my range,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Worked my land,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And graced me<br \/>\nwith their presence.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Massive<br \/>\ncreatures,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">With an<br \/>\nunderstanding of me<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">I strived to<br \/>\ngain of them.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">As a recluse<br \/>\nand a hermit,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">The mountains<br \/>\nand forests<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Were the walls<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">That protected<br \/>\nme from the world,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And the world<br \/>\nfrom me.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Though my<br \/>\nwords,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Scrawled with<br \/>\npen on paper,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In tomes of<br \/>\nthoughts and stories,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Unbound to my<br \/>\nappearance or presentation,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Reached the<br \/>\nworld\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Inciting change<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In the world,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And in people.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">As an immortal,<br \/>\nI never aged,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And lived more<br \/>\nlives than I can dream.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Some hiding in<br \/>\nneed of respite,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Some among the<br \/>\nmortals,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Some just<br \/>\nwishing death could find me.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">As a lover, I<br \/>\nloved\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Many,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Often,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Emotionally,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Physically.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">That love<br \/>\ntaking many forms,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Described by<br \/>\nPlato and Aristotle,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In Buddhist<br \/>\nteachings, the Bhakti tradition, and Sufi poetry,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In the Kama<br \/>\nSutra, The Perfumed Garden, Ishimpo, and The Golden Lotus.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">But always,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In the end,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Alone.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">I spoke with<br \/>\nlife from other worlds\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Creatures that<br \/>\nset me here<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">To observe me<br \/>\nlike a rat in a maze,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">To use me as a<br \/>\ntool for change,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">To empower me<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">As a weapon of<br \/>\nmass destruction,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And mass<br \/>\ndevelopment.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Their constant<br \/>\nchatter ringing in my ears during day,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Translated in<br \/>\nconversation<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In that<br \/>\ntwilight.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">I stopped wars,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And saved<br \/>\nlives\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">But I took some<br \/>\ntoo.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">I lived in<br \/>\nwealth and poverty,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Freedom and<br \/>\nconfinement,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Giving and<br \/>\nbegging\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">With a roof<br \/>\nover my head,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">And just the<br \/>\nsky as my roof.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">But always,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">In all lives,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Alone.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Even with and<br \/>\namong others\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Alone.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">That twilight,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">The worlds<br \/>\nbetween the worlds,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Is my reality,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">For a brief<br \/>\ntime,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Until sleep<br \/>\npulls me away<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Into the realm<br \/>\nof dreams and nightmares\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Then spits me<br \/>\nout<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">Into the<br \/>\nreality I cannot change,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">But that forces<br \/>\nchanges in me,<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal;margin-bottom: 0cm\">As I long for<br \/>\nthe worlds of my twilight again.<\/p>\n<div align=\"center\" class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;text-align: center\">\n<hr align=\"center\" size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" \/>\n<\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">There\u2019s<br \/>\na quiet war each of us wages\u2014one that doesn\u2019t make headlines, doesn\u2019t ask<br \/>\npermission, and never stops advancing. It\u2019s the war between life and time. We<br \/>\nfight it not with weapons, but with breath, memory, love, and the stubborn will<br \/>\nto keep going\u2014despite the creaks in our bones or the silver in our hair.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">This<br \/>\npoem is about that battle. It\u2019s about facing the slow siege of aging with<br \/>\ncourage, with humor, and with an unshakable sense of self. I wrote it not as a<br \/>\nlament, but as a rallying cry\u2014a kind of whispered oath to the part of us that<br \/>\nrefuses to surrender.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">It\u2019s<br \/>\ncalled&nbsp;<\/p>\n<h2 style=\"text-align: left\">The Unending War:&nbsp;<\/h2>\n<h3 style=\"text-align: left\">Life vs. Time<\/h3>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">I stand at dawn upon this weathered ridge, My banner<br \/>\nraised against the coming tide, Time&#8217;s armies gather in the distant mist, As I,<br \/>\nLife&#8217;s champion, prepare to ride.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">They say no mortal ever wins this war, Yet here I<br \/>\nstand, defiant to the last, My armor gleams with hope still unfulfilled, My<br \/>\nsword still sharp despite the battles past.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">Time sends its scouts\u2014a silver strand of hair, A<br \/>\ndeeper line etched near my watchful eye. &#8220;Small victories,&#8221; I scoff,<br \/>\nand raise my helm, Though somewhere deep, I recognize the lie.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">The skirmishes cut deeper through the years, A knee<br \/>\nthat aches before the coming rain, The memory that flickers, dims, and fades,<br \/>\nQuick breaths where once was stamina unfeigned.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">Time fights with patience, never charging straight,<br \/>\nIt lays its quiet siege around my walls. The mirror shows the ground that I<br \/>\nhave lost, Each morning&#8217;s muster, fewer soldiers call.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">My joints now crack like armor poorly oiled, My<br \/>\nbones protest at tasks once lightly done. &#8220;I yield no quarter,&#8221; still<br \/>\nI boldly claim, While Time just smiles\u2014the long game has begun.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">By night I fortify with stubborn dreams, By day I<br \/>\ncounterattack with fierce delight. I celebrate each moment as it comes, Each<br \/>\nbreath a victory in this endless fight.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">The hills I climbed with ease in bygone days Now<br \/>\nseem like mountains, steep and never-ending, My body\u2014once my ally\u2014now betrays<br \/>\nWith limits, weaknesses, and slower mending.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">&#8220;Is this defeat?&#8221; I whisper to the dark,<br \/>\nNo voice replies\u2014just breath and memory. But something stirs. The self I used<br \/>\nto be, Still answers: \u201cTime can wound, but not erase.\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">To beauty, love, to wisdom dearly earned, The spoils<br \/>\nof battle Time cannot reclaim. What matters most lies deep beyond its reach\u2014<br \/>\nThe essence of your spirit and your name.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">So on we fight, Time&#8217;s armies and my soul, A war of<br \/>\nattrition playing out each day. It claims its victories in flesh and bone, In<br \/>\ngraying temples, strength that slips away.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">But in this uneven contest, strange to tell, I find<br \/>\na truth that glimmers like a blade: Though Time will win the final reckoning,<br \/>\n&#8216;Tis how we fight that makes us unafraid.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">For Time can count its trophies all it wants\u2014 The<br \/>\nsuppleness of youth, the carefree stride\u2014 Yet cannot touch the fire that burns<br \/>\nwithin, The heart&#8217;s defiance, stubborn, dignified.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">So let Time come with all its silent force, I stand<br \/>\nunbowed, though battle-scarred and worn. Each day I rise to face its vast<br \/>\narray, Each night I rest, prepared for war at dawn.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">And in the end, when Time makes final claim, When<br \/>\nbreath departs and silence claims its due, Remember this\u2014I fought with all I<br \/>\nhad, And lived each moment fierce, and burning true.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div align=\"center\" class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;text-align: center\">\n<hr align=\"center\" size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" \/>\n<\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\"><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">\nNot all poems need to be solemn.<br \/>\nThis one surprised me\u2014like finding wildflowers growing in a ruin.<br \/>\nSometimes we resist despair by laughing. Or by remembering beauty.<\/p>\n<h1>Herc<\/h1>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">Giants aren&#8217;t supposed to dance but nobody told this<br \/>\nto Herc.<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">massive shire horse, eighteen hands high <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">hooves like dinner plates <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">mane flowing like a midnight waterfall <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">built for plowing fields and pulling carts <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">but secretly dreaming of ballet<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">watch him now, dew still on the grass<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>his enormous<br \/>\nbody suddenly weightless<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">defying physics with glee<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">\u201cLook at me!\u201d he seems to say\u2014<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">as he prances sideways<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">neck arched<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>tail flagged<br \/>\nhigh <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">like a victory banner<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>sheer delight<br \/>\nin all that horseflesh<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">the way his eyes bug out when he spots a butterfly<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>the<br \/>\nground-shaking buck and twist at the sight of a plastic bag<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">(ridiculous on a beast so grand)<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">his whinny like rusty gates opening into sunshine<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">he gallops circles &#8217;round his field<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>each lap<br \/>\nfaster than the last<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>legs like<br \/>\ntree trunks somehow suddenly graceful as gazelles<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>only to stop,<br \/>\nsnort, paw the earth<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>then collapse<br \/>\nin a rolling frenzy<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>four<br \/>\ndinner-plate hooves waving skyward<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>coating his<br \/>\nnoble bulk in pasture confetti<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">oh to love your body that completely!<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">the farm dog barks<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>the chickens<br \/>\nscatter<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>the farmer&#8217;s<br \/>\nchildren double over in helpless giggles<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>as Herc <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">the gentle giant <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">celebrates the miracle of being alive<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">in his paddock cathedral he preaches joy without<br \/>\nwords <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">converts everyone to laughter <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">teaches us the ridiculous wisdom of half-ton<br \/>\ncreatures <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">who forget they&#8217;re supposed to be dignified<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">thundering happiness that rattles the barn walls<\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\"><span>&nbsp;<\/span>and shakes<br \/>\nloose whatever seriousness <\/p>\n<p class=\"whitespace-normal\">we foolishly cling to<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div align=\"center\" class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;text-align: center\">\n<hr align=\"center\" size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" \/>\n<\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\"><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">We<br \/>\nlive in a world that\u2019s increasingly hostile to slowness.<br \/>\nEverything is optimized. Quantified. Filtered for speed and scale.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Our<br \/>\ndays are measured in clicks and scrolls,<br \/>\nour attention sliced thin by algorithms designed not to nourish, but to<br \/>\nconsume.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Poetry<br \/>\nclashes with this.<br \/>\nIt resists the metrics.<br \/>\nIt refuses to be flattened into content or converted into data.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Poetry<br \/>\nlingers.<br \/>\nIt\u2019s inconvenient.<br \/>\nIt sits with us in the aftermath\u2014after the feed goes dark,<br \/>\nafter the meeting ends,<br \/>\nafter the noise dies down.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">It<br \/>\nsays: <em><span>Here. Feel this.<\/span><\/em><br \/>\nEven if you don\u2019t understand it.<br \/>\nEven if it hurts.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Poetry<br \/>\ndoesn&#8217;t chase virality.<br \/>\nIt doesn&#8217;t trend.<br \/>\nBut it remains.<br \/>\nLike a breath held in the chest.<br \/>\nLike the echo of something you didn\u2019t know you needed to hear.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">And<br \/>\nin a world obsessed with momentum,<br \/>\nthat stillness?<br \/>\nThat presence?<br \/>\nIs an act of quiet defiance.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Thank<br \/>\nyou for listening today. For making space for stillness.<br \/>\nFor trusting the quiet to mean something.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">If<br \/>\nany of these poems spoke to you, I hope you\u2019ll carry them for a while. Let them<br \/>\nsettle. Let them echo.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">You<br \/>\ncan find more of my poetry in <em><span>Fragments of Frost and Fire<\/span><\/em>,<br \/>\non my blog, or tucked between the lines of my stories.<br \/>\nAnd if you&#8217;d like to support this work, my books are available wherever books<br \/>\nare sold. Every purchase helps keep this podcast\u2014and this quiet space\u2014alive.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">Until<br \/>\nnext time: May your signal find the stones that remember.<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: normal\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Welcome back to Stone and Signal.&nbsp; If you haven&#8217;t heard the first episode yet you can find information on Episdoe 1&nbsp;here&nbsp;and Episode 2 here. 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